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Jealousy. How do you define it? The general interpretation of that is a bitter feeling, felt when someone has something you can't have.


Or is it?


If you want to avoid jealousy, how do you do it if you're already jealous? Is that even possible? What if you don't want to be jealous, yet at the same time don't want to avoid the object that's causing all this negative emotions? It is a little crazy, but it happens, although logically, it isn't possible.


People are all different. Some choose to show it, some hide it, but either way, it tears you apart inside.


If Jealousy is such a terrible thing, would you choose to live with it? Before deciding, consider the fact that if you choose to live with it, you will still have the object of jealousy 'by your side', so to speak. If you decide to do without it, that OJ should not be in your life anymore.


Yet sometimes you may choose to forget, or put that OJ aside temporarily, while concentrating on other more important things. But no matter how hard you try, it still nags like something undone at the back of your mind.


There are also times where you do not chase the feeling, nor abolish it, but just let it stay where it is. But two minutes later you find that that OJ is resurfacing in your mind because of something you have seen, heard, etc.


It's quite impossible, I find, to forget jealousy easily. It must be dealt with promptly, and nipped in the bud.


But how many people are willing to stop that feeling? For with it comes other feelings I will not mention.


So what will the decision be? To let it alone, leave that object of desire fade away - or to court it, that you might enjoy the presence of the OJ? And misinterpreting the presence as well, I might add.


But humans - myself at least - somewhat need to be jealous. Every single thing in life will have at least one other person admiring it secretly.


Jealousy is painful; it cuts the heart like a knife; slices it so fine. She knows to aim where it hurts most, and strikes one too accurately at the place. And it hurts. You long for the OJ, even if you may not want to. But how to forget and let go? It's different for all individuals, I guess. After all, everyone is unique in his own way.


Since jealousy is painful, why cling on? Why not let go, and get it over and done with? Ah, but if only things were all so simple.


Jealousy. The incurable disease of the heart everyone is born with. It is like a loanshark: it takes so much, yet gives something we invariably cannot do without.